Fall seven times,
Stand up eight.
I recently grew tired of making excuses. Excusing others for their behavior and mannerisms citing age and what not. I grew tired of making excuses for myself to myself on matters pertinent to me. I always seem to make plans on forging forward or doing something meaningful with my life but a few days in I quit. I down my tools and put my plans at the back of my mind and call it “good-riddance” better to start than not start at all. Excuses!!
But later on, maybe days, maybe months maybe years, the plans I made are now too much to be kept at the back of my mind and they start knocking on my subconscious making known that they are lonely and want out again.
To most of you, I got it all figured out. Honestly, I do feel inadequate sometimes. My reason for quiting is mostly because I put this high expectation; this targets that -true may not be beyond my reach- but I have the doubts of what if.
I was recently explaining to a close friend my intense fear of failing. Failing to the world, to my mother, to the ideology of self and therefore I quit before I fail. I jump out of the car fearing I will crash even when the sailing is relatively peaceful. Shameful I know, but this year….
Oh this year is different!!!!!
I started and I’m still continuing. I’m ready for failure, failure just means I can pick up and try again. Failure means that I am a conqueror to my errors and a learner to newer and better ways. And boy have I fallen. Sometimes I say whatever and just lay in bed during my workout time and watch a movie. Sometimes instead of healthy eating I eat bhajia(thanks Victor😋😋😋). Sometimes I just can’t finish a workout but I’m not letting it put me down that I won’t get there..
So this year….
I’m going to get to my perfect body size that is not measured by the scale.
I’m going to grow strong spiritually and mentally.
I’m going to love and love without bounds to those around me and to myself.
I’m going to meet my 2017 goals because this year I AM cut out. And if for a reason I fall along the way, I’ll learn how to pick up the pieces and move on some more…